Week 17.....ish*

First of all Dr's appt went well, got a physical, met with a nutritionist etc. Only gained one pound...guess that's fine for now. Feel like I've gained more, but I guess muscles are loosening and things are shifting around...so that's probably what I feel more than 'weight gain' per se.

*OK, so I've been given two different due dates. Long story short (ok, not long, just a mix of TMI, boring stuff and the like): I have to get another, more thorough ultrasound. I was given November 16th and November 25th. Hopefully someday I'll just have one due date. Basically I'm probably not 17 weeks, but seeing as how I don't know what I am I just picked one and am going with it until I'm informed otherwise. The confusing part is that I guess I would typically get another ultrasound around 20-24 weeks (again, told two different dates) but how do they know I'm 20 -24 weeks if they don't know how far along I am or a due date or whatever. Anyway! Basically I would get another ultrasound whenever I schedule it...but it might be too close to my USA departure so I might just wait until I go to Germany. We'll see.... which brings me to....

Flights! I've purchased my flights. I'll be departing the states on.....fathers day. In my defense, I had no idea it was fathers day on the 20th, I just searched 7 different days, three cities (Indy, Detroit, Chi-town) and that was the cheapest I could find. Trust me, I've second guessed myself A LOT since my purchase, but I would like to be able to move forward emotionally to some kind of acceptance or even excitement. This is a difficult place to get to in this moment because while I will be reunited with Sebastian, I will be leaving a lot of amazingly supportive family and friends. And yes, I'll miss the cousins in Michigan. But I would LOVE to skype with you all sometime during that weekend - I think it would be a great introduction for Sebastian to the family.

Other than that I've been exceptionally emotional...still no weird food cravings. Not really. I just let myself have whatever I'm in the mood for...weirdest so far: dinner of hash browns and veggie egg rolls, and lunch of pizza and potato salad. Not too weird, right?

Love,
Stace 'n Lemon

Thanks to:

Special thanks are in order....

To my family, for your words, prayers, thoughts...excitement - it means the world to me. Truly.

To Sebastian, for being an amazing partner and bringing me peace. You really are my rock - I honor your love and support and the father you are developing into.

To Anne for being the most amazing sister on the face of the planet - I know how important family is to the both of us...this will be difficult, and different, please keep your understanding nature coming sis!!

To Shala for the maternity clothes! I so much appreciate gently used things from friends, the most meaningful hand-me-downs you can get, with the love and memories already started. Recycling and re-using at it's best!

To Belle, for your time...for taking care of business in Phoenix for me in my absence, and in doing these tasks bringing me peace and security, knowing that the few material possessions I've lived without for a year are still safe and sound (AND Ivan and Jen for the garage corner that literally kept them safe and sound!)

And, last but most certainly NOT in any way least: my parents. Not only have they been supportive, understanding and amazingly helpful - but they've taken me into their home during this time of discovery and change.

Next blog: Doctors check up, photo AND.....drumroll please......flights purchased to Germany!!!

Oh, before I forget...thank you! Yes, you. Thank you for taking the few minutes to read this little note and staying that much more connected to the Weiss-Wedding family.

Stacy, Sebastian and Lemon

From Stacy's Laptop

Stacy & Lemon, 15 Weeks
(Admiral Lemon is the name we came up with for our little one, Sebastian and I came up with Lemon - we wanted something gender neutral, and that was the baby's size when we spoke - and a few friends insisted on it being Admiral Lemon...maybe so they could salute my tummy occasionally??)



After many requests I've decided a new blog is in order. This will be especially important once the move to Germany is complete. It's very important for me to feel connected to family at this time, so please feel free to comment, e-mail, write etc. I also want to make sure you all know what the Weiss-Weddings are up to and I'm going to be posting less and less on Facebook. (BTW, did you catch that? Weiss-Wedding.... translation = White Wedding...!) If you are not on Skype (family, I'm talking to you - friends too of course) please join! It's free and I'll be depending on Skype as my primary form of communication for a while. If you are on Skype - please make sure I have your Skype name, I've tried to find some of you and haven't been able to. You guys are very important to me, and I don't want to miss out on communications and such because I'm a few thousand more miles away!!


Enough about that!

The Admiral, from above: top of head and forearm/hand>>

In the next 24 - 48ish hours I'll be purchasing my flight to Germany. One of the only one way tickets I've ever purchased! I'm still not sure if this will allow me to be in Michigan for the 4th of July. There are MANY factors weighing in on this decision, and it's pretty much the hardest thing I've ever had to decide. With that said, I'll keep you all informed and please understand that at this time my desire to be reunited with Sebastian is very strong and this may be the most important thing I need at the moment.

The past few weeks have been filled with lots of preparation. I've been researching things I need to do and have in order to move/live in Germany...I made a quick trip out to Phoenix to gather belongings and see friends.... Doctors appointments... organizing things... and lots of Skyping with Sebastian....


< The Admiral, from below - bottom to the right, feet to the left



Awards are in order.... After my 'heavy' e-mail announcement, I was very blessed to hear back from a lot of you.

Award for First Reply goes to:
Javi, I knew it would be you - thank you for your honest, frank, and from the heart reaction!

Award for Bringing Tears to My Eyes:
Kathy, your message meant a lot and is very powerful, although, it's not too hard to make me cry these days :)

Award for Best Advice:
Lynn, thank you for the well wishes and GREAT advice - I will keep on laughing and hopefully bring joy into everything I do.

I don't want this to belittle ALL the amazing responses we got!! Thank you all for the notes, words, well wishes, prayers etc. We can't tell you how much it means to us at this time in our lives. We love you all!

Stacy, Sebastian and the Admiral